Went out with friends

                                              

  So Me, Anjh and Lara went to Trinoma to have a study group for our advertising case study. we ate at bigoli then went to coffee bean to finally do our study group. we had fun talking to each other.                                     

thinks that sometimes it's not what you say that hurts, but it's the fact that you say nothing.

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LOADS OF WORKS TO DO!!!!!!!!!! KILL ME NOW!!

Maybe

Cguro kaya hndi ko pa matanggap na kailangan ko na syang klmtan dahil alam kong my nararamdaman pa sya para skin. sana dn matangap nya na yung gf na nia yung pinili nya. at nirerespeto ko nman yung nging decisyon nya khit mhirap. Tlgang my msasaktan kapag ng mahal tayo. sa case manin, ako na yung nasaktan. wag kang mag alala alam kung dadating din yung time na magiging okay din ako. sana maintndhan mo kung bkit ako lumalayo dahil ayoko na maka gulo sa relasyon nyo. at sana ikaw din. maramdaman mo din na kailangan mo ding lumayo para matulungan ko din akong makalimot. kung gusto mo akong mging msaya sana tulungan mo din ako. by leaving me for a while. We can be friends after i recover myself from this fall. i promise you that.. I wont waste out friendship because we started as a friend and i think we shouldnt end like strangers. I hope you understand.. I am doing this for my self.

Update!

Its been a long time. and its been really tough for me these past few days.. first, i changed my number to start my new life without him. i feel bad though. its just that, its seems that he dont deserve an explanation from me. cause ive been gone without telling him. that hurts more? i dont mean to hurt him if ever that hurts him.
i really dont know what to do. i always ask my friends opinion but i get so shy when i feel like its too much that we always talks about it, i dont want them to get fed up. and i want to solve this with myself cause its for my own.

Second, my family.. ugh so many problems for my age. i feel like im all grown up and super stressed. i envy those people who seems to be happy with everything though i know that they have problems too. but i wonder how they can cover it up and pretend that everythings alright. i know ive been a fan of pretending.. but i dont know why i cant do it anymore? sometimes when i get home from school and its time to sleep i feel like sleeping is my worst time of the day because all i do is to think about the past. and tears started to fall. and at the end of the night il be sayin to myself thats its over and its okay.. someday i want to feel the night time when i was little when all i think before i sleep is who to play with? though i wont happen anymore. i just want to have peace of mind. i need some distraction. i dont want to think about it anymore. please.