Holiday is OVERRR

The christmas vacation is really over. Back to school, Home works, Prelim Exams, Uggghh i just can't think of it anymore! i feel so lazy nowadays... and i don't know why.. i skip classes this first week. idk maybe because im not yet ready to go back to my reality.

My cousin Marla is probably sitting on her flight thinking of her Final exam on Anatomy.. i will miss her so much.. its been really long time ago since were together. Like almost 9 years. aww.. and now were away. Again. oh anyway, hopefully she can go back this summer.

I cant believe that christmas is over without feeling it. i have so many plans that are failed. :( esp. the new years eve. :( i was so sad that time but i just talk to my friends just to ease the pain. it was a very very sad new year's eve. i feel so alone even though my mom were there. maybe because im missing my past life. my dad. ate. kuya. my lovely nephews. :(

but hopefully 2010 will be a nice and lucky year for me. im expecting everything this year.. Friends, Lovelife, Family, Health, Career, and Wealth. ofcourse. :) i also wrote my New years Resolution. i wish i could do them all. :(( especially the Diet part. omg i gained 25Lbs. this holiday season! I know. it sucks.

Its Christmas!

Merry merry christmas to all of you guys! its been a while since i update my blogsite. yawwwnn. im kinda sleepy right. this christmas will be the first xmas without dad. sad tho.

Awww.. I miss you Daddy. :(

Last time we talked.. Aug 11'09 12:19pm

I just found this on my cellphone while i am cleaning all my call registers. and yes, this is the last time ive heard his voice... i didnt know that, it will be the last.. I am calling his phone cause mom forgot to get the code numbers to get the money @ Western Union, and i called Daddys number and he picked up the phone im wondering why is he the one to picked up the phone while usually he dont do that since he was admitted @ the hospital.. i am so mad cause Im runnin out of time and then he still talks to me but i cant understand what hes sayin.. so i hang up the phone and call kuya genos. and after that we got the money i get my baon and i went to school. while im on my way Someone is calling and its shows "Daddy Calling.." but i didnt pick it up cause i thought he just clicked it cause he usually done that he dont know that hes calling but then my kuya genon texted me "cheanne umuwi kna nag aagaw buhay na c daddy." and then i went to he hospital very quick. i found him @ ICU.. and i never talked to him since then.. i never thought that this was the last time ive heard his voice... Im missing him so much..

Jabbawockeez In Manilaaaa!

Ooh.. Yeah! I attented all my subjects today, and they are Two, hahaha! Lol, Philo and Socio.. First i was so panic-ing goin to school cause im hella late. i woke up so so late! but when got to school my profy just arrived when i arrived, haha. Lucky huh? :)) then after the philo. we went to jolibbe to eat merienda i ate Shanghai and tuna pie Plus PeachMango Pie. haha. :) im soo hungry that time! and after eating so fast i reviewed my Midterm, cause i am goin to take my exam @ 3pm. lol look at that stolen shot i look stupid! haha my faced were too close at the book! lol. and atfer taking my exam me,anjh and che went to gateway and farmers, to buy some stuff needed for tomorrow, che's bday celebration.. and after that we ride the MRT and...


What the fuck?! haha! thats the first word that came into my mouth since i step out the MRT, Cause we never thought that these thousands of people will fiiled trinoma to watch the JABBAWOCKEEZ! take a look at the pic. that is just the one side of the mall!! like the whole cirle were full!! Omg, im like, how can we see jabbawockeez with these people! haha. its so sad. but we have our own way to see jabbawockeez. we rode the escalor back and fort! haha,that is so dangerous! haha. cause everyone did the same thing! hahah! the after seeing them, we had a lil mall hopping and after that we go home... haha. and i saw jhakes rela, then we went home togetherrr. :)) and they pay for me. Lol. thats the bright side. :) Omg, i just notice, oh i just smelled my feet smells bad.. :( why? they are usually dont smell like this. Ugh.. gross! haha! anyway, on monday we dont have class so Im so happy happy Again!!! :) Love it.. :)

Fisrt day of "BER" Months

September 1, 2009, Its almost christmas, first christmas wihtout my dad.last christmas was tough cause we had no money that time but this timeis even more tougher, its okay last year that we have no money but thistime its without Daddy, i couldnt even think my life without him..he raised me alone for so many years.. weve been sharing our lifetogether for so many years.. i missed him so much.. words cant expresshow much i miss and love him..


I still remember when i was little i was sicked and he have to sendme into a doctor for a check up.. and theres a flood into the streethe carried me along the way goin to the doctors clinic.. he always do what i want.. thats why i am like this.. im such a brat..


theres so many things that my dad sacrifices for me and for our family..


I am so missing him right now.. i missed the times when we were goin tomall for groceries... me and my nephews were so happy cause we are goinhome with something with us..


he always hides hes feeling to us, the pain that he is goin through, for us not to be worried..


theres this one time that i have a scheduled entrace exam in UST me andmy dads dream school for me.. he dropped me at the school even though hedoesnt have money for the gas he still dropped me by.. too sad that i didnt passed it. that he were so upset in me and soo mad really bad..


i dont know what to do that time, i thought he could understand me.. buthes really mad.. i dont know why he doesnt understand me that time..maybe because ive been so pabaya that time.. till my birthday comes.. hes still mad at me cause of what happened. im mad at him too that timehe didnt gave me money for my bday or anything, so my friends and i decidedto just contribute for the party @ warehouse and after that i didnt go homecause im so mad at him..


but time goes by the bitterness fade.. im really sad cause even at the last time of his life i didnt even made him feel proud of me.. he hasgiven me everything i need.. i wanted to give back all the love he hasgiven me but too bad i couldnt. cause its too late for that..


now all i have to do is to study hard and be a nice daughter to my mom.


Daddy, You know that im trying..All my best for you to feel proud of me cause you know what Daddy,


I am so proud of you.. And i love you so much.. Guide us on everything, Help us to reach the right way.. I love you.